This weekend my parents and I went shopping for baby stuff. The goal was just to look around at the store to get some ideas of what we need. However, I quickly realized I have no idea of what we need/want. The choices of the cribs, baby furniture, strollers, car seats, bouncers, swings, diapers, bottles, video monitors, breast pumps, toys, and even diaper pails was extremely overwhelming for me. My parents were very wonderfully supportive and helped me realize that we have a long time to get ready and that we just need to do some homework and it will all come together. My dad had especially fun at Babies R Us looking at the bouncers and comparing them. I think he was secretly hoping that they would have one in an adult size for him! :)
We also got to call Aaron's Grandma Barker and wish her a Happy 92nd Birthday and tell her our good news.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
It's Not a Baby....It's a Tadpole!!!!!
What a fantastic and exciting morning! We were so nervous of our first official doctor's appointment. We weren't sure what to expect, but, we were prepared for anything. We were also prepared with a list of questions. After the nurse and doctor asked many questions about both of our medical history and we got our questions answered, it was time for my exam. I was prepared for this until she said I (my uterus) felt smaller than she expected and that we were going to do an ultrasound!!! I had wanted one, but, was told that it was so early and we probably weren't going to do one. Later, Aaron told me this was the only point in which he was concerned. A few minutes later, the doctor's first words were like music to our ears, "Looks perfect." And, then she said, "We can even see a heartbeat." I thought I would get emotional, but, I think I was concentrating and so focused, that I didn't get emotional like I expected. The doctor pointed out the baby is currently head down and Aaron said, "It's like an upside-down tadpole." We were both amused by the doctor's immediate agreement.
I think I have enough proof that I am actually pregnant! What a great day! Here are some pics and video.
I think I have enough proof that I am actually pregnant! What a great day! Here are some pics and video.
Skype !!!
We finally got on a skype and practiced with Aune and Pop over the weekend. We were able to talk to Aunt Andra and tell her our good news. Here is that fun video. Andra's intuition is right on. I wonder if she knows what we are having. :)
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Anxious for Monday
Monday is our first official ob/gyn appointment. We both took off of work this morning to share it together. We have no idea what is going to happen, but, our list of questions is compiling.
Here is a fun video of telling my Grandma Helen about Our Little Hardt.
Here is a fun video of telling my Grandma Helen about Our Little Hardt.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
It's Time--The Journal of Our Journey To Get Here
January 8, 2012
This week is my Grandma Marilyn's 80th birthday. I ask her and my parents to come out so I can take them out to brunch to celebrate. We also decide this would be the perfect time to tell them. We put one of the pregnancy tests in a box, wrap it in Christmas wrapping paper and tell them it's a late Christmas present. It just didn't arrive in time. Check it out:
January 1, 2012
The on-call doctor called me this morning to let me know that the blood test is positive and I am pregnant. I still can't believe it!!! I spend the day cleaning the whole house and nursing Aaron from his bad cold. Also, I am currently 5 weeks along and our due date is September 6, 2012.
December 31, 2011
Let the journey begin--We're pregnant!!!!!!! I am on Day 31 of my cycle which is the longest it's been all year. My cycle has been a bit sporadic all year, but, I've never gone this long. In addition, I had a very unusual milk craving earlier this week, coupled with no symptoms of PMS (my normal day of bitchiness and tender breasts) are all my current symptoms. Also, it is the 1 year anniversary to the day of us trying. How romantic it would be to tell Aaron on the 1 year anniversary of us trying as well that it's New Year's Eve. I woke up early and took my first pregnancy test at 5am. The result had a positive sign. My first reaction was, "Well, that's new." The lines weren't exactly the same shade of blue so I consulted the instructions in the box, It said that the lines need not be the same shade to be positive. I still wasn't convinced. I went back to bed and took another one when I woke up later at 8am. I got the exact same multi-shaded positive sign. After a year of trying I still wasn't convinced. It seemed all too perfect and surreal. I remembered I had seen in the stores pregnancy tests that would clearly say 'pregnant' or 'not pregnant. I knew I had to get something in writing. I went to Walgreens and bought a 3 pack. (I had a coupon). :)
After a quick lunch with Aaron, I take a third test. At this point, he still has no idea that I am possibly pregnant. I didn't want to get him excited if these were false alarms. I went back into the bathroom, closed, and locked the door, did a deep exhale and saw the word 'pregnant'. I was a mix of shock, tears, excitement, but still mostly denial. I needed an official doctor or some medical professional to confirm this. I told Aaron I had a quick errand to run and then I took myself to Urgent Care. The nurses and doctor on call were very wonderful and sweet. They all came in with a positive result and now I am crying like a baby (no pun intended). However, I still feel like I need a bigger confirmation. So, I ask for a blood test. The doctor says, "If the urine test is positive, you are pregnant, but, if a blood test makes you feel better, we can do one." They proceed and I am told I probably won't get the results until the next day. I speak with the nurses about my plan to not tell Aaron until midnight, but, I'm not sure I can wait. I make myself though. Telling him at midnight (one year to the day of us trying) is just too perfect, I can't not do it. I go home and do one more test, yes, it's positive. We kill the afternoon napping and watching tv as we are both battling bad colds. We muster up enough energy to go out to one of our local favorite restaurants and see our friend, Eric, a Neil Diamond impersonator perform. We are home by 11pm and I tell Aaron that I want to videotape us celebrating at midnight. He is hesitant at first, but, quickly gives in. Midnight is seconds away, and I get the camera ready. Here it is:
November 5, 2011
I had my second blood test for my progesterone level this past Wednesday. My doctor's office called this morning to tell me my levels were low again. This means I'm not ovulating at all, I don't ovulate every month, or they timed it incorrectly (again). Either way, it is not the news I am looking for and I am feeling devastated. I go through the day not just grieving a child that never was, but grieving an opportunity that never was. My heart seems to be telling me to accept the fact that I'll never have a baby. But, my head tells me this process of 'trying' is just beginning.
October 31, 2011
"Your semen results are normal." To be honest, we were both quite surprised with this. We were both planning for the worst, I guess. So, now, is the issue with me?
October 29, 2011
So, I'm not. We also found out my progesterone level was low. My doctor wasn't concerned about this and thought they might just have timed the test incorrectly. So, she wants to test me again. According to my cycle, that would be November 2nd.
But, today, we are doing Aaron's cup test. He has been so patient and has really stepped up with this. At this point, we just really need some answers. We had to go down to Waukesha Memorial and he would have to make his ummmm.....deposit there as it has to be read right away. We were both strong and courageous until we got in the waiting room and there was a mother there with the most beautiful, most perfect, newborn baby. I saw this perfect little baby and just lost it. It was just a reminder of why were there.
Aaron was escorted into a room and was given a short form to fill out and told some directions. I was offered to be with him, but, I felt that Aaron was capable of doing this alone.
October 11, 2011
I am on Day 29 of this month's cycle. And, all I can think of is am I or aren't I?
October 7, 2011
I had an appointment with my doctor today. We discussed my monthly cycles, how many times we have sex (I still think not enough), when we have sex, and my temperature (I have been tracking my temperature for the past month), and what our next steps are. They took my blood to make sure I'm ovulating and to see if there is a thyroid issue. She also gave me the famous 'cup' for Aaron. I think we'll wait for my blood work to come back before we take that step.
September 29, 2011
Unfortunately, no luck. Feeling very frustrated and thinking about making an appointment to see my doctor.
September 3, 2011
This is our 5 year anniversary weekend. We are staying at the hotel we stayed at for our wedding night, the Ambassador Hotel. I am ovulating this weekend too, so, wouldn't it be so special to say we conceived during this very special weekend?!?
July 8, 2011
Today is Aaron's birthday and I was hoping to tell him he's going to be a father. Unfortunately, not yet. We're still trying though. I'm getting a little frustrated.
April 22, 2011
It's been a couple months and unfortunately there hasn't been any news to report. We have, however, gone a little 'high-tech' with our first foray into using ovulation sticks! I actually bought some kits off of ebay of all places. The auctions mentioned that thankfully for them, they were pregnant and no longer needed them. After reading the directions, I promptly took a test only to find out that I was fertile. I called Aaron upstairs to the bathroom to look at the ovulation stick. He grinned, laughed, and exclaimed, "You get a smiley face!?!" Yes, if you're fertile you are greeted with a digital smiley face. Seeing a small device like this confirm I was fertile and that this was 'prime trying time' was exciting, exhilarating, and nerve-wracking all at the same time. It was time to continue 'practicing'.
February 18, 2011
Unfortunately, nothing yet. Jamie has been under a lot of stress lately at work and is looking for a new job. We will keep trying. We know we just started. But, we'll keep trying.
January 22, 2011
We had a very nice month of trying. Unfortunately, this month it 'didn't take', as Aaron says.
December 31, 2010
We spent the night in our Log Cabin room in Cambridge, WI. This is where Aaron proposed to me. It is always so romantic and sentimental to go back there. We enjoyed a great wine reception, enjoyed to hot tub, and although we struggled to stay up until midnight, it was worth the wait. It was a magical night. Though the chances are slim, there was something amazing about the fact that we are officially 'trying'.
December 5, 2010
Today was the first month of being officially off the pill. Here is a pic of me taking the last birth control pill!
November 13, 2010
I as driving home today and thought how nice it would be to have a baby to come home to. It became very clear to me that I was ready to go!
October 10, 2010
With so much going on at work and perhaps me being a little nervous, I told Aaron I wasn't quite ready yet and that I wanted to stay on the pill for a little while longer. I was nervous and emotional about disappointing him, but, he was nothing but understanding, patient, and put no pressure on me at all. He's not just a wonderful husband, he's a wonderful person and friend.
September 12, 2010
I started my last pack of birth control pills tonight. It was exciting knowing we were getting close to the 'point of no return!'
August 20, 2010
We've had a crazy, fun summer. Work has been tough for Jamie, but, things are progressing. We were able to take a weekend getaway to Mackinac Island. On the 7 hour drive up we talked a lot about having a baby. We talked about our fears, our excitement, and, of course, baby names. Those will be revealed later. :)
May 3, 2010
I told my doctor today that we'd like to start trying next year. She recommended that I get a tetanus shot (hadn't had one in 20+ years), an HIV test, and a test to see if I'm immune to Rubella (German measles). I went home to tell Aaron about all of these and he asked me, "Are we sure? Are we ready?" I jokingly replied, "I had blood taken. We're doing this!"
All tests came back normal.
This week is my Grandma Marilyn's 80th birthday. I ask her and my parents to come out so I can take them out to brunch to celebrate. We also decide this would be the perfect time to tell them. We put one of the pregnancy tests in a box, wrap it in Christmas wrapping paper and tell them it's a late Christmas present. It just didn't arrive in time. Check it out:
January 1, 2012
The on-call doctor called me this morning to let me know that the blood test is positive and I am pregnant. I still can't believe it!!! I spend the day cleaning the whole house and nursing Aaron from his bad cold. Also, I am currently 5 weeks along and our due date is September 6, 2012.
December 31, 2011
Let the journey begin--We're pregnant!!!!!!! I am on Day 31 of my cycle which is the longest it's been all year. My cycle has been a bit sporadic all year, but, I've never gone this long. In addition, I had a very unusual milk craving earlier this week, coupled with no symptoms of PMS (my normal day of bitchiness and tender breasts) are all my current symptoms. Also, it is the 1 year anniversary to the day of us trying. How romantic it would be to tell Aaron on the 1 year anniversary of us trying as well that it's New Year's Eve. I woke up early and took my first pregnancy test at 5am. The result had a positive sign. My first reaction was, "Well, that's new." The lines weren't exactly the same shade of blue so I consulted the instructions in the box, It said that the lines need not be the same shade to be positive. I still wasn't convinced. I went back to bed and took another one when I woke up later at 8am. I got the exact same multi-shaded positive sign. After a year of trying I still wasn't convinced. It seemed all too perfect and surreal. I remembered I had seen in the stores pregnancy tests that would clearly say 'pregnant' or 'not pregnant. I knew I had to get something in writing. I went to Walgreens and bought a 3 pack. (I had a coupon). :)
After a quick lunch with Aaron, I take a third test. At this point, he still has no idea that I am possibly pregnant. I didn't want to get him excited if these were false alarms. I went back into the bathroom, closed, and locked the door, did a deep exhale and saw the word 'pregnant'. I was a mix of shock, tears, excitement, but still mostly denial. I needed an official doctor or some medical professional to confirm this. I told Aaron I had a quick errand to run and then I took myself to Urgent Care. The nurses and doctor on call were very wonderful and sweet. They all came in with a positive result and now I am crying like a baby (no pun intended). However, I still feel like I need a bigger confirmation. So, I ask for a blood test. The doctor says, "If the urine test is positive, you are pregnant, but, if a blood test makes you feel better, we can do one." They proceed and I am told I probably won't get the results until the next day. I speak with the nurses about my plan to not tell Aaron until midnight, but, I'm not sure I can wait. I make myself though. Telling him at midnight (one year to the day of us trying) is just too perfect, I can't not do it. I go home and do one more test, yes, it's positive. We kill the afternoon napping and watching tv as we are both battling bad colds. We muster up enough energy to go out to one of our local favorite restaurants and see our friend, Eric, a Neil Diamond impersonator perform. We are home by 11pm and I tell Aaron that I want to videotape us celebrating at midnight. He is hesitant at first, but, quickly gives in. Midnight is seconds away, and I get the camera ready. Here it is:
November 5, 2011
I had my second blood test for my progesterone level this past Wednesday. My doctor's office called this morning to tell me my levels were low again. This means I'm not ovulating at all, I don't ovulate every month, or they timed it incorrectly (again). Either way, it is not the news I am looking for and I am feeling devastated. I go through the day not just grieving a child that never was, but grieving an opportunity that never was. My heart seems to be telling me to accept the fact that I'll never have a baby. But, my head tells me this process of 'trying' is just beginning.
October 31, 2011
"Your semen results are normal." To be honest, we were both quite surprised with this. We were both planning for the worst, I guess. So, now, is the issue with me?
October 29, 2011
So, I'm not. We also found out my progesterone level was low. My doctor wasn't concerned about this and thought they might just have timed the test incorrectly. So, she wants to test me again. According to my cycle, that would be November 2nd.
But, today, we are doing Aaron's cup test. He has been so patient and has really stepped up with this. At this point, we just really need some answers. We had to go down to Waukesha Memorial and he would have to make his ummmm.....deposit there as it has to be read right away. We were both strong and courageous until we got in the waiting room and there was a mother there with the most beautiful, most perfect, newborn baby. I saw this perfect little baby and just lost it. It was just a reminder of why were there.
Aaron was escorted into a room and was given a short form to fill out and told some directions. I was offered to be with him, but, I felt that Aaron was capable of doing this alone.
October 11, 2011
I am on Day 29 of this month's cycle. And, all I can think of is am I or aren't I?
October 7, 2011
I had an appointment with my doctor today. We discussed my monthly cycles, how many times we have sex (I still think not enough), when we have sex, and my temperature (I have been tracking my temperature for the past month), and what our next steps are. They took my blood to make sure I'm ovulating and to see if there is a thyroid issue. She also gave me the famous 'cup' for Aaron. I think we'll wait for my blood work to come back before we take that step.
September 29, 2011
Unfortunately, no luck. Feeling very frustrated and thinking about making an appointment to see my doctor.
September 3, 2011
This is our 5 year anniversary weekend. We are staying at the hotel we stayed at for our wedding night, the Ambassador Hotel. I am ovulating this weekend too, so, wouldn't it be so special to say we conceived during this very special weekend?!?
July 8, 2011
Today is Aaron's birthday and I was hoping to tell him he's going to be a father. Unfortunately, not yet. We're still trying though. I'm getting a little frustrated.
April 22, 2011
It's been a couple months and unfortunately there hasn't been any news to report. We have, however, gone a little 'high-tech' with our first foray into using ovulation sticks! I actually bought some kits off of ebay of all places. The auctions mentioned that thankfully for them, they were pregnant and no longer needed them. After reading the directions, I promptly took a test only to find out that I was fertile. I called Aaron upstairs to the bathroom to look at the ovulation stick. He grinned, laughed, and exclaimed, "You get a smiley face!?!" Yes, if you're fertile you are greeted with a digital smiley face. Seeing a small device like this confirm I was fertile and that this was 'prime trying time' was exciting, exhilarating, and nerve-wracking all at the same time. It was time to continue 'practicing'.
February 18, 2011
Unfortunately, nothing yet. Jamie has been under a lot of stress lately at work and is looking for a new job. We will keep trying. We know we just started. But, we'll keep trying.
January 22, 2011
We had a very nice month of trying. Unfortunately, this month it 'didn't take', as Aaron says.
December 31, 2010
We spent the night in our Log Cabin room in Cambridge, WI. This is where Aaron proposed to me. It is always so romantic and sentimental to go back there. We enjoyed a great wine reception, enjoyed to hot tub, and although we struggled to stay up until midnight, it was worth the wait. It was a magical night. Though the chances are slim, there was something amazing about the fact that we are officially 'trying'.
December 5, 2010
Today was the first month of being officially off the pill. Here is a pic of me taking the last birth control pill!
I as driving home today and thought how nice it would be to have a baby to come home to. It became very clear to me that I was ready to go!
October 10, 2010
With so much going on at work and perhaps me being a little nervous, I told Aaron I wasn't quite ready yet and that I wanted to stay on the pill for a little while longer. I was nervous and emotional about disappointing him, but, he was nothing but understanding, patient, and put no pressure on me at all. He's not just a wonderful husband, he's a wonderful person and friend.
September 12, 2010
I started my last pack of birth control pills tonight. It was exciting knowing we were getting close to the 'point of no return!'
August 20, 2010
We've had a crazy, fun summer. Work has been tough for Jamie, but, things are progressing. We were able to take a weekend getaway to Mackinac Island. On the 7 hour drive up we talked a lot about having a baby. We talked about our fears, our excitement, and, of course, baby names. Those will be revealed later. :)
May 3, 2010
I told my doctor today that we'd like to start trying next year. She recommended that I get a tetanus shot (hadn't had one in 20+ years), an HIV test, and a test to see if I'm immune to Rubella (German measles). I went home to tell Aaron about all of these and he asked me, "Are we sure? Are we ready?" I jokingly replied, "I had blood taken. We're doing this!"
All tests came back normal.
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