What A Relief!

I've been tormenting myself this past weekend with thoughts of what if something bad happens to the baby. Or, to be more blunt, what if I miscarried.??? I went on the internet and read too many baby blogs, too many medical definitions, too many statistics, and learned way too much about missed miscarriages (this is where the baby has passed but the mother has had no symptoms of a miscarriage). I then woke up around 1:30am with some mild cramping. This coupled with all of the reading and 'research' I have done, well, for a lack of a better word, completely freaked me out. I was a complete wreck all morning and knew the only thing that would help would be some sort of reassurance. I needed to see or hear the heartbeat. I just needed something. Our next routine appt is next week and I knew I couldn't wait. Aaron supported me in going to the doctor so I got to go on my lunch hour today. My doctor saw me right away and we first talked about everything that I've been feeling. She was very comforting, said there is probably no concern, the cramping was probably just my uterus growing, and we would now listen to the heartbeat. She warned me that because I'm so early (only 10 weeks), it might take a while to find the heartbeat, so I shouldn't be alarmed. She put the jelly on my lower tummy and began searching. At first, there was nothing, and then about 10 seconds later there it was---phrump--phrump--phrump. Going 177 beats per minute, strong, healthy, and perfect...oh, so perfect.